God Sent me a Angel

I wasnt at my mothers long before, I moved into my own home. Still going off the deep end. Only this time it was worse. I dated more, trying to always feel loved. I was engaged only to find him cheating on me in the back of a vehicle. I grasped for any kind of affection, even if it wasent love.   I met an out of town bullrider, and we had a week-long, relationship.  He left and I went back to  a x boyfriend. The relashonship was good. We were a cute couple, Everyone loved. Things were so good. We both had decided neither one of us were ready to be parents so I went in to have a depo shot done. Little did I know I was already pregnant. 6 months pregnant to be exact. The time that Brad and I had been back together.  While neither one of us were ready to be parents, He was ecstatic. He was so happy. I had to break the news too him, that even though there was a chance that this baby may be his, there was also a chance it may not.

I was pregnant again. Only this time i had made it a lot further, than Brianna.  My pregnancy was hell. Every little thing made me nauseous. I couldn’t keep anything down. I was going into the doctors office three times a week for a shot of erbutaline. It was horrible. At this point I was far along enough that we were able to get a ultra sound and found out we were having a little girl. Brad stood by my side. Even though we had broken up at this point, after I told him it was a possibility that my baby may not have been his. Brad was great. My due date was March, 30, 2000. However after I had, my labor stopped so many times, She did not come.  One early morning, around 4 am, I was living back at my mothers. It was Tax time and she was a accountant. Deadlines had to be in. My Grandmother from my moms side had came from Oregon to be present for my daughters birth.  I woke up, in alot of pain. It was a pain I knew, But my mom said were gonna wait it out. It was probably just pre term labor again. I took a warm bath…Didnt Help. I put my legs up on the couch and laid on the floor, Didnt help….My mom told my grandma to take me to the hospital and have me looked at.

We walked into the hospital, My OB Met us there. He checked my cervix, I was dilated to a 9. It was time!!!! I begged for something for pain, but because i was already at a 9, There were no options. It was time to deliver this baby all natural.  My daughter was born April, 6th, 2000. She was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. Chunky little cheeks, 10 fingers, 10 toes, 8 pounds, 22 inches.  I named her Hailey.

After My  little girl was born I went back and got my GED. I was so proud of myself. Hailey and I got a small apartment, and we started our life. I was a single mom. Soon after we did a paternity test. Hailey was not Brads. She was the Bullriders. I was crushed. He left me that day, and I never seen him again.

While i knew I had it coming, it was just like everyone else in my life. No one wanted me. No one loved me. I felt so alone. My saving Grace? Hailey!!!! Someone needed me as much as I needed them. Hailey was my God send.   My little angel Loved watching Tarzan. I always sang her, the song you will always be in my heart.